Why Am I So Afraid...

Why am I so afraid... I saw that they didn't come... Was heartbroken... People don't even want a friend... I never expected both of them not to come... I didn't care if all the people in the world came and both of them didn't... Nothing would have changed... They still didn't turn up... Nothing compares to that... Well... At least Rain had the decency to tell me why she couldn't come... But Maple? I'm dissapointed... She just escaping reality... She wouldn't speak to me... Blocked me on msn... Refused to answer my msgs... Fine... Just Fine... What do you want me to do? You people jut continue to WRECK my life OVER and OVER again... It's just screwed up... The day i go mad... Is coming very soon... But neither will be there to know... No one will know... Because I won't show it... You people just don't get to close to me when I explode... Coz' I wouldn't spare anyone... Why? Because by then, I'll have lost all my love... For everything...