My Unjust - Reunification

An Average Day...

2006-07-18T19:26:00.000+08:00

Todays an average day. I so thoughted. Well. I didn' bother to try to take the bus today. I knew I would miss it. Instead. Today. I took the train. And guess who I saw. Jerald. Favourite senior in the world. Most respected. And I guess very much my best friend in Track and Field. Wow. We talked much. About the lighthouse Sng. About Nationals. Many others. What a great start to a day.

Assembly was exptionally fast today. Much to my delight. Maran didn't talk much. Cool huh. Then E maths. Did the cedar paper. Fricking hard. Did like 10-12 questions in like an hour. Damn Bloody slow. But Zuraimi was quite pleased with me. Teach a teacher how to do vectors. Dig it suka~! Nice day so far. Tazzneen spoilt it with a compo I'm betting 5 dollars that she wouldn't mark. We had a A maths mini exam today. Couldn't do a single question at all. I'm Hopeless. Wouldn't learn for nuts. Played a base ball like kinda game during free period today. LKS didn't turn up. I better start practicing Chemisty on my own too. Cannot be to confident. Jiao Bing Bi Bai. A proud soldier is bound to fall in combat.

Ericia took me by suprise today. She said I was her maple bf. I was like thinking of how I want to ask her to be my gf. And she said that. Whee. In maple my life's pretty fun. Reality. Life Sucks. Really sucks. *Sigh* Edmund still hasn't return me my ipod. No reflections again. Ok. Reach orbis le. Got to go.

Yessa...

2006-07-17T19:33:00.000+08:00

Today is kinda screwed up. In a manner that I like. At least. As a matter of fact. It was so screwed up. I liked it. Today was different. I did things that I never thought I could do. Whee. Achieving stuff is like so fun. Morning. Dad almost caused me to be late again. Shit. Don't know what I can do to make him send me to school earlier.

Haha. School tried to teach us about Drug Abuse. From SANA (Singapore Anti-Narcotics Abuse) or something like that. Well. It didn't work. It'll never will. Ok. P.E. was tiring. But today. It was worth it. Passed my 2.4km run at 12th position. Whee. So Happy. Don't know what kept me going. I just told myself "Home is beyond that curve. I'll be there before long". Well. It works. Thought about Rain. The seawater. The jellyfish. And to continue. Ya. I almost forgot. Tazzneen is a BITCH. Testimonials. Something you should never have to write about yourself. She made us do it in class. Bitch. Just a bitch. "You must write down your strengths. And give evidence." What?! Crapping is easy. Backing it up is hard. Physics was ok. Except I was kinda slow. Well. Whatever. I think I got full marks for my Listening Comprehension.

No ipod. Lent it to edmund. Well. I guess no reflection today. Haha. I go maple. Want the 50% today. Hah. Want to Crusaderize myself by next weekend.

Wha... What? Me?

2006-07-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

Today I woke up. My eyes felt particularly tired. I should stare less into a computer screen. Tau Sar Pao for breakfast, followed by Victor bringing me to Tiong Baru Market for Kuay Chap. I noticed that Chloe cut her hair really short. Didn't like it one bit. She should leave it long. Then she'll be chio, for a girl; Far from Rain.

David asked me to play the bass today. I was like "What?! Me?" In the end I still played. Felt different from worship practice. Kept glancing at David. He didn't look at all. Half way through Victor came and told me I was soft. Panicked for a moment. On the whole. It was a whole new experience. Playing and stuff. New to me. I kinda like it. Victor's teaching was particularly boring today. Wonder who asked anybody to teach George Ong's camp stuff to teens. It doesn't apply. Cater to the masses. Not to the Godly few. Pathetically unteachable.

Hah. I thought Felicia was execptionally pretty today. She was wearing a pink shirt and khaki jeans. Wow. She reminded me of lydia. Looks quite the same ya? Dad's super pissed off wif me using the computer. He thinks I can only use the computer to play games. Well. Not the least bit. Suprised.

Lazy Me. Lazy. Just Lazy.

2006-07-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

Saturday. Day of relief from school. The most justifiable prison. No different from four walls. Anyway. Woke up in the morning. Mapled for a few minutes then chased down by dad to buy breakfast. Tried to buy something new today. Ended up sweating more than anything. Wonder why I actually bothered in the first place.

Left the house to church. More or less nothing happened really much today. Haha. Recruiting people to start mapling. Whee. I wish Rain would play maple. Wow. That would be like so cool for me. At least. No bus ride. no reflection time. Ren Jin acted rather coldly towards me. I think she knows that I'm still quite angry. Maybe. Maybe not. Victor told Su Wei and Ren Jin about my blog. Then said I had a problem trusting god. Its not just trust. Brother. Its more like I don't even know if he actually exists. Ha. Don't give a cancer patient the cure when he's already dead. Likewise. He still has sometime. I'm still waiting for some MIRICLE to happen. Still waiting. Waiting.

Jason is playing maple now. Leveling quite fast. For a newbie. One day. I'm going to go top his house and take all the photos of Rain from him. Probably make a mural or a mosaic or something. And put it on my desktop and stuff. Rainlize myself. An Unnatural Obsession. An Unjust Reunification.

Huh... Wad? Oh... I see...

2006-07-15T18:26:00.000+08:00

Been kinda dazed lately. I realised my reflexes are drifting away from me. Funny feeling. Feeling slow and lazy. I can't even chain my KoF moves properly. Haiz. I wonder what's happening. I played maple yesterday till 1 am. Didn't blog. No excuse. Sorry people who actually read it.

I do both days of blogging in one day. Quite happy. Jolvin is finally back to is normal jovial self, after I lashed out at him. Didn't mean it. School was a gigantic waste of time on friday. Got the exam proof. Monday's chinese "O" level exam listening comprehension. Quite nervous. But i don;t really care do I? Tazzneen is a GIGANTIC bitch. "Even if I ask you to do 100 argumentatives and only mark 2, you still have to do it." I hope she actually realises it.

After school on friday, went to play basketball at Siglap CC. Fendi didn't come. Whee. Well I guess i do hate him. Sometimes I daydream about taking him out. Deflating his ego. Crushing Byte's world. Someday, I will. Finally. Air gear. Simca. Haha. She's so beautiful. Like Rain. Haha. I'm still delrious. Haha. Haha.

Reflection period again. I didn't think very much on friday. Didn't know what to think. My mind was filled with Rain. Her voice. Her face. Her memories. Rain. Purely Rain.

Whoo... Its Thursday already.

2006-07-13T15:15:00.000+08:00

Its so fast. Time flies. Its thursday already. Its been over 650 days. Waiting for you. Waiting for you. I hope I can get the scanner in so I can blog in chinese by scanning what I want to say. That'll be cool, I guess.

Wasted $7.50 on taxi ride to school today. They should abolish the "See Me Tommorrow Before Seven" thing. Its retarded, and shows how inconsiderate the school is towards the students who live very far away. Kenneth is a bitch, a low-down fag who thinks he's cool and actually has friends. Wow. He has friends? Amazing. Acting cool without any head knowledge is a sure way to the stage of "pariahs". You already are one. Rou Lao Shi seem much prettier today, for some reason, perhaps because she was kinda in high spirits today. Haha. Wish I could apologise to Reuel. Kena jacked by Eric again. I couldn't help but hold Rueul's hands so that Eric could shove the soccer ball into his balls.

Today, I took 197 home, couldn't stand single deckers. I reached home at 3. What?! 196 was supposed to be the faster bus. Next time I'll take timings. Heard F.I.R.'s "Chi Niao" on the bus. Sweet song. I'll write out the lyrics and scan it in, hopefully someone will read it. Wo hai zai den dai, den dai ni de ai.

Yesterday night I died again at macis. Where the hell am I supposed to train man? Liu Lang, Tzeru Tzeru, Drifting in Maplestory.

Pissed Off

2006-07-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

Since I have nothing to write about in my blog, I might as well do what everybody else does. Write everything that happens in my day. Hah. Hope someone would read it. Or even more hopefully That Someone would read it.

I realised that 630 in the morning waking up was seriously too late. Either Dad or me will drag till its 7 in the morining before we leave the house. Then today I was late again. Second day in a row. Then Mr. Chia came and nagged with his Holier- Than-Thou tactics. "Youure in the top 7 or 8 in the school coming late ah. You want me to dig up all the record in the file isit? Tommorrow better see me before 7. Is that clear?" Well Fuck Chia.

I also learned something today. If u are ahead of the class, class is more interesting to listen to. Learnt vectors in tuition, so class today was particularly interesting. Jolvin was a little friendlier, thankfully. Watched "I not stupid 2" in chinese class. I hope I can actually do Kwok's work someday.

Ponned ESP again. Came home. On my usual life reflection time on the bus ride home, I thought about Rain. I wonder how is she.

My Blog

2006-06-20T08:12:00.000+08:00

I am going to discuss serveral sensetive issues here, don't mind me... But they are close to my heart... Nothing to do with my new com... Wouldn't just be the right excuse not to blog... Right?

The Curse...

2005-12-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

I'm cursed... I'm sure of it... I'm still waiting for anyone to oppose me... I'm cursed... I've too good a memmory... I'll never forget anything that I have remembered... Rain... Maple too... I'm cursed never to forget them... Ever... Cursed... I still remember every day I was with each of them... I'm cursed never to forget them.. not now.. not ever...

SianZ... Nothing To Do...

2005-11-29T14:08:00.000+08:00

Today is rj's birthday... Later I will have to go to her house... I still dunno wad to get her... Maybe I'll visit Gina in Suntec city... Should be ba... Anyway, maple server fixed already... continuing to play.... But I don't really feel like playing anything right now... I miss her too much I guess... Not a very nice feeling... I just wish God didn't give me such a powerful memory... I can't forget her... At all...

Just Blogging For The Sake Of Blogging...

2005-11-25T11:45:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't know what to blog about anymore... Nothing's interesting is going on in my life anymore... I'm just waiting for someone to give me something to do... My house is still unde renovation... Dragged on for 2 weeks already... My room looks more cheery with a new "spring green" look... My Mom and Dad's room is light purple... Looks wierd... Anyone can tell me how to contact Charisse? I wanna ask her how to decor' my room... Looks too plain for me... Please tell me what to do... I'm bored... Ask me questions so I can fill my blog as well... YoUr MAr-tha's sHo fatT... ThAa-ATt whEn sHe JUmPs fOe JoO-Oi... ShE GeTs StUck.

Why Am I So Afraid...

2005-11-22T03:48:00.000+08:00

Why am I so afraid... I saw that they didn't come... Was heartbroken... People don't even want a friend... I never expected both of them not to come... I didn't care if all the people in the world came and both of them didn't... Nothing would have changed... They still didn't turn up... Nothing compares to that... Well... At least Rain had the decency to tell me why she couldn't come... But Maple? I'm dissapointed... She just escaping reality... She wouldn't speak to me... Blocked me on msn... Refused to answer my msgs... Fine... Just Fine... What do you want me to do? You people jut continue to WRECK my life OVER and OVER again... It's just screwed up... The day i go mad... Is coming very soon... But neither will be there to know... No one will know... Because I won't show it... You people just don't get to close to me when I explode... Coz' I wouldn't spare anyone... Why? Because by then, I'll have lost all my love... For everything...

I've Finish Almost Everything

2005-11-17T21:05:00.000+08:00

Yay... The day is done... I've done alot today... Almost everything that I mentioned on my earlier post except reach level 30... HaiZ... I hope Andrew doesn't come back so fast... Then can train longer... I got new specs... Looks quite OK... By Victor and Gina... Da-ge and Da-sao... Then we bought alot of stuff... Ruffles... I pick ruffles... marshmellows... Lotsa stuff... Anyway... I want everyone reading this blog to stay at the chalet if possible... "I'll be your best friend!" Just come and stay... Till monday morning... Please~!! I'll want company...

All the stuff that I did made me learn something... There IS a difference between Love and Obsesstion... People speak of love... But act like they are obsessed with each other but when you tell them... They deny it... But I don't mind them denying and I don't get angry... After all, "Love is within the eye of the beholder" isn't it?

Sho Busy Today...

2005-11-17T08:06:00.000+08:00

Its like 8 am... So late... I usually don't wake up so late... Anyway... Today is a big day... Buying lots of stuff... For personal use and for chalet... At suntec city... So much today... Even though thursdays are lazy days... I'm chionging maple now... Today I want to be lvl 30! So i can become the few poison mages in maple story... HaiZ... So hard to train... 5% by 5%... Can only hope that Andrew doesn't wake up and show black face again... His every morning is never good... Always a long face... Anyway... I bought a dark chaos robe from jolvin... 220k + brown piette... Don't know if i'll regret it... I think it looks nice... I go train le... So SianZ...

My Dying....

2005-11-16T09:00:00.000+08:00

At least I think so... I tell my mei's Meanwhile... I've accelerated mine by eating lots of junk food, getting heartbroken and not exercising... It does make you a better person in a way... You become more jovial... A likely trend in fat people... I just wonder... When is any bad really going to happen to me? I wasn't angry or sad or even dissapointed when I tore my ligament just before Nationals last year... My friends were quite sad... Coz' I could have been in top eight positions, instead of tenth... Then maybe my teachers would treat me better... Becasue I scored points for the school... Then again... I never felt physical pain tall the time that I'm dying... It's partially true... We are all dying... Sooner or later we will die... hat much... But when she left me... I was angry... I was sad... I was dissapointed... I did weights I never knew without support... Somehow, matters of the world did not concern me, but the matters of the heart... Somehow...

Reveal A Little More About Me

Favourite Food: My Neighbourhood's "Lucky Chicken Rice" ( Can only be ordered by me )

Favourite Song: Right now its Hillary Duff - Rain ( For obvious reasons )

Favourite Actor/Actress: Steven Segull ( My favourite action superstar )

Favourite Singer: David Tao ( Tao Zhe )

Favourite Game: Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind ( With expansions Tribunal and Bloodmoon )

Favourite Instrument: Piano ( Although I'm not good at it )

Favourite TV Show: Friends ( Although I didn't watch that much )

Favourite Hamster: Nicky ( She is not featured in Hamtaro )

Favourite Place: Nearby Park When Its Raining ( If that doesn't count, then Church )

Favourite Phrase: Selaid Noe... ( Not used in church - It mmeans nonsencical idealogy )

Favourite Thing On My Table: Bottled Stars ( A project meant for someone's Birthday )

If you give me food vouchers for chrismas... I am going to kick you...

Its Just Me...

2005-11-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

I think I'll start this blog with an introduction of myself...

Full Name: Hui Kok Cheong Nicholas

Chinese Wording: Xu Guó Xiáng ( Country's Blessing )

Birthdate: 14 September 1990

Zodiac Animal: Horse

Astrological Sign: Virgo

Nothing much... Except that I find my chinese name abit girly... Coz' my name is uni-sexual... My life's a little messed up right now so I'll probably blog on and off when school reopens... Pretty much hell broke loose when I learned that some thing are the way it is and some things just are not meant to be... So now i'm very much picking up from where I started... Its really not nice to know that people just cannot tell things straight to their faces... When all they needed to do was just to say so... I don't know... I'm very confused right now... Just let me think for awhile... Grasping on to the ray of light, I hope I can find the answer...